i know it's me

you razor past me

i ask why what is it me

you faintly recognize

your words belie

your eyes

i don't like

that i know it's me

my heart with pain searing

telling me it's me

you're taking it against me

i weep

my nose gets stuffy

and i try

to get sleep

against your mocking

rhymes

that i don't like

i don't know what why

is it me

but i know

my heart tells

me it's about me

We thank you great Jesus
for the blessings that unfold
we are amazed by Your grace,
you shower Love a millionfold

Teach us to exalt You,
praise You everyday
Let Your words
speak beautifully,
in our lives, in our ways

Love us, embrace us
light our paths, our minds
we seek to please You
may in everything
Your peace we find

10.17.06 2:21:11 am

it's nice to get rid of old habits when they supposedly die hard,
it's nice to want to be again perfect, breathe clean again from the start
I want to be young like when you hold my hand, stay in our bubble only our hearts understand.
it's nice to be everyday with you, happy is the air that surrounds
i like to stay young with you, age will know no bounds...


9.07.06 8:21:45am

they cheer and are rowdy the hours through
all I can think of is my hour to you..
tonic doesn't do it quite right,
your love is all i need to sustain me tonight

night wears on with
propositions one or two
all i can think of
is my
hour
to
you

09.10.06 12::41 am

one bleep received

how dandy this technology,
letters via halfscreen and coot smileys there be
Rowdy this heartbeat
1 message received
brings you back to me
Arteries haywire
with love for you
the clouds above me shall
cover you too
fancy this keypad
bleeps missing you
bleeping heartbeat back
knowing you
miss me blue
cosmic how history
timecapsuled we
parking lot mix up
led you to loving me...

08.09.06 11:22:42 am

Stay

Don't hurt me with your tone
If I worried,
Forgive me
I feel Alone

There's no mistaking
I love you
Don't coin my worries as fear
Had I been I wouldn't be here

I don't understand why
you are annoyed
by the things that I say
You're my refuge
Your healing words are
All I have today

You ask me not to worry
I'm asking you to stay
With me,
My weakness

Stalking me,
At prey...

08.03.06 7:23:53 pm

monday night's missing

my brows haven't been shaven,
i'm missing a boot..
Gray socks with black
Monday night's raining
hope I don't get wet to roots

I'm so out of here
when you're there
I need you beside me,
keep tugging at my hair

I'm going insane without
your love
my heart's morose
weeping like my sky above...

07.24.06 9:33:14 am

Let me bring you back,
let me unhurt you
a heart like yours, so pure so true
Lies, hurt and riches demand
do not deserve

Your wings unclipped,
grows back to life,
let ne hold your hand
i'll be your Light
when you soar..
when you fly..

07.23.06 11:29:28 am

walls have increased,
a cause to become unstable
but my certainty dwells
in my heart untouched..

i become cold at my birth's want
of separating us
i cry
i want to be with you

she urges me to go back and be
sheltered by the norms
i know i yearn for you hence
this dawn i refuse..

Take my hand, love,
to that distant land..

Our Love will suffice us..

6.27.06 9:19:02 am

searing turmoil

it's another cut, another groan
i don't think i can stand this alone
but I am,
knowing that you're there
if by this i have you,
all pain i will bear..

they say i'm wrong
but they're not right
i beseech Kiej to sustain me tonight

Our Love is pure
and I'll close my eyes
tomorrow comes and I shall be
with you, my Light...

06.25.06 11:58:42 am

assault

my womb cries and my love for you strengthens,
they want to instill fear but i will not cower ,
for i know your eyes will heal me

vengeance is all they have but this searing pain
will not make me falter,
they cannot sieze my heart
they will never consume me

Look at me my Love,
i am yours,
my being will never fail me.

06.25.06 8:32:19am

Sa Iyong Pagbabalik

Mag-isa sa lamig
nakapanlulumo,
Nanaisin ko pa ang init
kung kamay mo ang hawak ko

Libong sakit ang iniluha ko
tanging mga labi mo ang nagpahilom nito
Alam kong higit pa sa libong luha
ang pag-ibig mo

Hahayaan kitang mahalin ang mundo
nais kong hayaan mo akong
Ibigin ka
Na ganitong kalayo

Kung itanong mo man
ni minsan

Hindi ako sumuko.

Rehas

mga rehas mo'y pighati ko

bakit ngayon laman tayo nagtagpo

mga awiting sawi ang puso

dati'y pinagtawanan ko

hindi ko akalaing sa atin ay

mangyayari ito

naganap na

di ko mawari kung bakit hanggang

bukas

alam kong rehas mo'y

mananatiling rehas

at mga awiting sawi lamang

ang sa akin ay mamamalagi...

Proverbs 23:6-8

23:6. Eat not with an envious man, and desire not his meats:
23:7. Because, like a soothsayer, and diviner, he thinketh that which he knoweth not. Eat and drink, will he say to thee: and his mind is not with thee.
23:8. The meats which thou hadst eaten, thou shalt vomit up: and shalt lose thy beantiful words.

Strawberry - licked lips,
mine are right now as sweet as

yours are

even sweeter than any sugar coat -
my heart is cloaked by this 12 - hour sadness
of being unbeside you

strawberry - licked with you

i am

Ordered Life

I am glad that in this disarray,
I am looking for order in my life

My room unspic and span
I tidy by bit like my faculties
preparing for the light..

I've never had a reason,
never had a song...

Until you Loved me..
Wrote order in my nights..

Daplis...

Daplis...

Animo'y hinugot ang aking kabuuan..
Sinanib, sinamyo ang aking karimlan..
Nais kong magapos ng iyong init,
tiyakin at supilin mo ang aking laman...

Daplis...

Pupuntahan ko ang ikaw,
ang iyong buo, susupilin ng init mo
ang init ko

Daplis...

Hindi lamang...

Rose coloured eyes when I was 6,
dreamt of playing beyond that red trident gate -
I followed, obeyed..

Sixteen, cage unwanted I opened the latch and
Saw the world
I searched myself, i searched for you...

26 has me holding you, together
there will be no more red trident gates
until our children turn
6, 16, 26...until gray...

I am with you

stubborn they tell me, i am
headstrong they say

i quarrel because i am
no one owns me so i let myself
indulge

i take no heed, i have no master

Until you...

i desire nothing, nobody..

i am always anywhere but here
Anywhere as long as I am with you

You kissed me

And i am no longer stubborn
no longer alone

You kissed my unneed away...

i like the way you write me

I like the way
you stand in front
I like the way
you move
I like the way
you use endeavour
I like the way
you approve

I like the way
you use lol all the time
I like the way
you love me

I like the way
you watch me vacillate
I like the way
you don't like rolled sleeves
I like the way
you treat me no
more than you really like
to let it show

I like the way
you call me crazy Monday
I like the way
you found me

Truth is
I never just liked you
from the start

I like the way
you call me Antagonist of Time
I like the way
you write me

I like the way
you love me everyday
I like the way

I love you

not quite

i'm so in love with you
it's now silly when i rhyme
because every line ends -

no, not this time

they all end with "you"
and there are less words to list and rhyme and mix and say with

you

it's endless miss

futile pillow

i wake and reach hoping it's you that i

feel

pillow's all i have, blanket at my heel

what i would give to make her me
all i am is you right now
all that i need to be

i wish i was her to recite the bills
tangle with you pre - sleep

and

kiss your lips, your ears

i wish i was her to bid you goodbye
when my sun sets
and yours off to night

Come with me please
i don't care who i am
may it be a far - fetched world some

ungoverned land

right now it's you that i see

runaway me now

after that beautiful thing

i love how your car smell sticks to my cardigan
i love the taste of your lips in the morning sun
i love it when you're amazed at big things outside
i love how you reassure me whenever i want to hide
i know i can never say how much i love you

but

i love it that you love me even more
than you want to

attemptingrubberduckiesandlith-ofsomecorrectsorts

your words on paper yellow and green/fire my fury unthought of/
i kept the pollute hidden in my purse/ of corporate cataract/waiving served
its purpose of/feeding leghorns bleeding eop/i've lost my purpose almost/till
u chewed breakfast with cold fusion